Friday, August 18, 2006

Having Faith In Life Always

I live in Cleveland Ohio U.S.A. and I am 62 years old and own a small Boutique. I never knew about NF until about 18 years ago. I got NF from what they call a mutation of a gene. There is no one in my family of ten that has NF. I suffered with pain in my face for a very long time but no one was able to ever find out what was wrong until I went to a dentist that was a specialist to ask about the tumors in my face...and the rest was history.
There are many more thousands of people who suffer more than I do, but living with pain is not easy for us all... I truly believe that God is with us all on this adventure of life. And yes, with the Love of Family and friends we can accomplish all. I met Jai a few years ago on the NF website and she has truly been a Blessing as a friend. She is so sweet and understanding and so strong for all that she has been through in her life. Sometimes someone crosses are path in life that really touches our heart and our lives.... Jai is one of those people.
I have met many people in my life and have been fortunate... but only a few can touch your heart and Jai and Anthony are one of those few. Remember life is Great and Worth Living We are here to Love and be Good to one another. Always, Ilona

Monday, August 14, 2006

Don't Call Me Disabled

Don’t call me disabled, that is not really true.
How would you like it, if that is what I call you?
Don’t tell me I am not normal it hurts me thru and thru.
What is normal for me is not normal for you.
Just because I am ill and I am not like you.
Don’t tell me what I can’t do.

I may not be a Cadillac or a Rolls Royce
However my illness was not my choice.
For everything you tell me, that I can’t do
There is something else I CAN show you.
First you say, that I can’t walk or run.
However, I CAN still have lots of fun.
I might be in awful lot of pain.
Give me a moment I will smile again.

I talk and visit more friends then you each day.
I visit with my computer it is just another way.
For all the things you say I can’t do.
I might just agree “if” I were you.

I am just thankful that I am me!
God will help me “Be all I can be.”
You see everyone is special, in their own way.
It’s just different the way we live each day.

I might need time to adjust.
I know God is where I place my trust.
Next time you tell me, I can’t work anymore.
Oh yes I CAN, Pain is quite a chore.

Now you say, I can’t socialize.
I am here to tell you, that’s all just a lie.
Yes, I might struggle more then you.
But God gave me knowledge on how to DO.
He gives me strength to learn each day.
How to do things in a different way.

Even tho I am sick and sometimes weak,
Everyday it’s “me” to whom he will speak.

Copyright Joynheart.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Something About ME

By Anthony

I live in the Netherlands. The doctor found out I had NF1 when i was 8 years old... I didn't have too much problems with NF through my childhood years... The lumps started when I was 17 years old. I've had many surgeries these last few years. Going to school was not easy for me, I had a hard time learning things w/having LD (learning disability) at times I felt frustrated w/not being able to do certain things... but I didn't give up just cause I have NF doesn’t mean it has me and with that I try my hardest to not let it get to me... I consider myself lucky. I have had a lot of support from family & friends and if it weren't for them I don't know where I be... I couldn't do it without them.

I work in a factory been there for 25 years I continue to keep working as long as I can... I live alone in apartment never been married don't have a girlfriend at times its not easy to be lonely. I always have my family & friends who is there for me...

My best friend Jai and I have been friends for 9+years. We call and write each other and IM. We met on the NF site years back. She is a good friend to have she understands and knows how I am feeling, she is easy to talk to and I feel so comfortable w/her. I have a hard time talking about myself but w/her I can say any thing and she knows exactly where I am coming from. I try to do the
same for her. I have a dream of meeting her one day it would make me feel better.... you never know Jai.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Heart 4 Hope


By Yvonne Foong
Whenever people express admiration for me, I feel overrated because I am no more than your average neighbor.

Like many 20-year-olds, I wake up every morning to check for new e-mails, read the news, and do random chores before heading to college. I am now deaf, so waking up without the alarm clock is relied entirely upon constant training of the subconscious mind.

I am a student of Mass Communication at Life College, which may be small, but it is a warm, supportive community of students. College is my second home, where familiar faces greet me at every corner I enjoy the company of my college mates, but life can seem so normal, that nobody would have guessed that this seemingly carefree teenager has an extraordinary tale.

No matter how much I consider myself normal, there is no denial that I am a product of genetic mutation that make tumors grow in my brain, spine, and random nerves. No cure exists for Neurofibromatosis.

Since the diagnosis four years ago, I had undergone three major surgeries to remove tumors in my brain and spine. I was paralyzed from chest-down for an entire month, and intense physiotherapy was needed to retrain my mobility. The tumors have so far caused me bilateral deafness. I am also suffering from partial facial paralysis and random nerve damages along the spine. Whenever friends perform challenging physical activities, I silently wish to be like them.

You may wonder how I still have room to feel “normal”. The answer is simple. I was not born this way. Although NF is a genetic disorder, there were no symptoms until I was 13. Until then, I remained a healthy child who learned ballet, figure skating and karate. I used to play with my friends in school and together, we would cycle to tuition classes. I could perform stunts that I can only reminiscent today. I had just passed grade 5 with a highly commended when worsening balance forced me to quit ballet

I was only 13 when my childhood was invaded. The adults dismissed my claims. Deafness and poor balance did not concern others until they became bad enough to put me on a wheelchair three years later.

Three whole years of anguish and suppression, without a clue of what was happening to me. The realities of NF would have frightened unsuspecting patients, but for someone who had suffered in silence, the diagnosis occurred to me as a
Relieve because - finally, there came a reason to my sudden disabilities. Finally, light shone after all those years of looming darkness.

That was four years ago. I have since traveled far to be where I am today. NF may be terrible, but it is also my vehicle to self-actualization. Because of it, I found God’s purpose for me in life.

After sitting for the SPM examination, I enrolled myself into a music diploma. I loved singing and had always wanted to improve myself. I was a soprano in the school choir. However, a tumor was soon discovered inhibiting the remaining hearing nerve. The inevitable fact of impending bilateral deafness loomed and I had to drop another passion.

That year, a third surgery left me in confusion. What will become of me with this illness? What am I going to do for a living?

God heard my cries and those uncertainties soon eased. Few months later, a young lady visited my website and was greatly touched. She extended her words of encouragement through e-mail, and a wonderful friendship began.

Cordelia Lee was a 33-year-old lady who, having known me for barely a week, suggested that I write a book.

I am so young. Who would pay to read my story? It’s nothing to shout about,” I protested without missing a beat.

Since I had no serious commitment at that time, and since Cordy volunteered to help, I gave it a go knowing that I was not alone.

The book took two months of heartaches, tears, and tiring self-indulgence to complete. I had never before reflect on my past, let alone writing it into a book. It proved to be therapeutic, unleashing the years of hidden hurts and resentments, allowing myself to heal in every way.

I am thankful that God brought Cordy to me. Without her, I would not have written a book and eventually won the hearts of many people. It was a first-class ticket to a brighter future. I have since been offered to write for many newspapers and magazines. Since my first appearance in The Star newspaper, my story has reached the knowledge of many people who became regular visitors to my blog. I later won the 2005 AYA Dream Malaysia awards based on public votes, that came with a full scholarship from Life College.

We are now selling HEART4HOPE t-shirts to raise funds for another surgery. Since December 2005, we have managed to raise RM50,000 in six months by the selling and public donations. The required sum is USD58,600 which includes tumor removal and the Auditory Brainstem Implant to stimulate sound sensations.

Fundraising for better quality of life may be tiresome, but everything that follow are priceless. Albeit my poor health, I still hope that one day soon, I can positively change the world by the stroke of a pen.By Yvonne Foong
Whenever people express admiration for me, I feel overrated because I am no more than your average neighbor.

Like many 20-year-olds, I wake up every morning to check for new e-mails, read the news, and do random chores before heading to college. I am now deaf, so waking up without the alarm clock is relied entirely upon constant training of the subconscious mind.

I am a student of Mass Communication at Life College, which may be small, but it is a warm, supportive community of students. College is my second home, where familiar faces greet me at every corner I enjoy the company of my college mates, but life can seem so normal, that nobody would have guessed that this seemingly carefree teenager has an extraordinary tale.

No matter how much I consider myself normal, there is no denial that I am a product of genetic mutation that make tumors grow in my brain, spine, and random nerves. No cure exists for Neurofibromatosis.

Since the diagnosis four years ago, I had undergone three major surgeries to remove tumors in my brain and spine. I was paralyzed from chest-down for an entire month, and intense physiotherapy was needed to retrain my mobility. The tumors have so far caused me bilateral deafness. I am also suffering from partial facial paralysis and random nerve damages along the spine. Whenever friends perform challenging physical activities, I silently wish to be like them.

You may wonder how I still have room to feel “normal”. The answer is simple. I was not born this way. Although NF is a genetic disorder, there were no symptoms until I was 13. Until then, I remained a healthy child who learned ballet, figure skating and karate. I used to play with my friends in school and together, we would cycle to tuition classes. I could perform stunts that I can only reminiscent today. I had just passed grade 5 with a highly commended when worsening balance forced me to quit ballet

I was only 13 when my childhood was invaded. The adults dismissed my claims. Deafness and poor balance did not concern others until they became bad enough to put me on a wheelchair three years later.

Three whole years of anguish and suppression, without a clue of what was happening to me. The realities of NF would have frightened unsuspecting patients, but for someone who had suffered in silence, the diagnosis occurred to me as a

Relieve because - finally, there came a reason to my sudden disabilities. Finally, light shone after all those years of looming darkness. That was four years ago. I have since traveled far to be where I am today. NF may be terrible, but it is also my vehicle to self-actualization. Because of it, I found God’s purpose for me in life.

After sitting for the SPM examination, I enrolled myself into a music diploma. I loved singing and had always wanted to improve myself. I was a soprano in the school choir. However, a tumor was soon discovered inhibiting the remaining hearing nerve. The inevitable fact of impending bilateral deafness loomed and I had to drop another passion.

That year, a third surgery left me in confusion. What will become of me with this illness? What am I going to do for a living?

God heard my cries and those uncertainties soon eased. Few months later, a young lady visited my website and was greatly touched. She extended her words of encouragement through e-mail, and a wonderful friendship began.

Cordelia Lee was a 33-year-old lady who, having known me for barely a week, suggested that I write a book. I am so young. Who would pay to read my story? It’s nothing to shout about,” I protested without missing a beat. Since I had no serious commitment at that time, and since Cordy volunteered to help, I gave it a go knowing that I was not alone.

The book took two months of heartaches, tears, and tiring self-indulgence to complete. I had never before reflect on my past, let alone writing it into a book. It proved to be therapeutic, unleashing the years of hidden hurts and resentments, allowing myself to heal in every way.

I am thankful that God brought Cordy to me. Without her, I would not have written a book and eventually won the hearts of many people. It was a first-class ticket to a brighter future. I have since been offered to write for many newspapers and magazines. Since my first appearance in The Star newspaper, my story has reached the knowledge of many people who became regular visitors to my blog. I later won the 2005 AYA Dream Malaysia awards based on public votes, that came with a full scholarship from Life College.

We are now selling HEART4HOPE t-shirts to raise funds for another surgery. Since December 2005, we have managed to raise RM50,000 in six months by the selling and public donations. The required sum is USD58,600 which includes tumor removal and the Auditory Brainstem Implant to stimulate sound sensations.

Fundraising for better quality of life may be tiresome, but everything that follow are priceless. Albeit my poor health, I still hope that one day soon, I can positively change the world by the stroke of a pen.
www.yvonnefoong.com

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

The Challenge

Hello to you all out there, especial to my friends, family, & those who I have met through cyber space I am very blessed to have you all in part of my life for your support, courage, strength, faith, friendship and the great example you set for others. I've asked a few important people to tell a little about themselves to share and explain to others about their health condition to how it affects them physical, emotional, and mentally the challenges that they must face in their daily lives. How they have learned from it, to except it... and the message they have for others who may or may not be in the same situation but could some how understand them in physical sense...

My heart goes out to all those who participated in sharing their personal story I know it's not easy thing to do but with your help we can learn so much from each other and make others hopefully better understand to what we go through.

Adversity Introduces A Man To Himself

Adversity Introduces a Man to Himself
By Kimberly

It has been said: A path without obstacles probably leads a man to nowhere. As for my life I believe this to be true.

As a young child I was diagnosed with diabetes and Placed on injections. The first thing I asked my parent was: do I get to go to camp UTADA, a camp for diabetics. My older sister had been and I wanted to go too. So two weeks after being diagnosed we headed of to camp together. I didn’t understand this would be a beginning of a new life. I spent several years at camp as a camper, staff member, and a camp counselor. This brought me great opportunities and memories. I also applied and was chosen to go to Youth Leadership Congress as a delegate for the Utah chapter for the American Diabetes Association. This gave me the opportunity to discuss several bills with congressmen and learn more about diabetes as well as make new friends from all over the United States.

In my early twenties I was diagnosed with Diabetic Retinopathy. I began to lose my vision. In a short time I went through nine laser surgeries. During that time I decided to return to school at Weber State University. There I became involved with the Students with Disabilities Office and the AWARE Club. I was given some great opportunities again. I served as the president of the AWARE and the Senator for Students with Disabilities. This gave me a great experiences and I was able to learn more about leadership.

Later I returned to the work force doing a job I enjoyed and loved very much. I was disappointed when I was told I needed to get off my feet due to problems. I was told if I didn’t get of my feet I could be in a wheel chair in fiver years or possibly amputation was another option. The Dr. stated it was just a matter of time. I contacted Low Vision Services to get their assistance. Once again, opportunities arose. They talked to me about attending the B.O.O.S.T.

B.O.O.S.T. has given me so much.. I learned computer skills, Customer Service Skills, and to use flexibility between technical skills and people skills, Problem solving which has helped me so much already. I have also learned about Quality in a company, teamwork, motivation, interviewing Techniques and the list goes on. David Salazar has taught me both about technical skills and personal skills through his example such as maintaining a positive attitude.

The Song Like An Eagle, by Carl Stromman helps to express my feelings about B.O.O.S.T.

Now is the time
To follow the wind
To walk alone

And a star will show the way
Above the clouds
Beyond the sea

And now is the time
And now and farewell
And as we part

You taught me well
You gave me strength
You showed the way
I'll not forget you

Like an eagle I will soar above the clouds
I will spread my wings and fly into the sun
Like an eagle I will race above the stars

I will fly to places yet unseen
Go beyond my wildest dreams
Know that you are watching over me

And all alone
I will follow the stars above
As my guide

As my guide
I trust in you
To show the way to me
Beyond the sea

And now is the time
And now and farewell
And as we part

You taught me well
You gave me strength
You showed the way
I'll not forget you

Like an eagle I will race above the stars
I will spread my wings and fly into the sun
Like an eagle I will race above the stars

I will fly to places yet unseen
Go beyond my wildest dreams
Know that you are watching over me

Alone, I can fly with the eagle to the mountain high
Race with the eagle so far beyond my dreams
Like an eagle I will fly

Like an eagle I will race above the stars
I will spread my wings and fly into the sun
Like an eagle I will soar above the clouds

I will fly to places yet unseen
Go beyond my wildest dreams
Know that you are watching over me

Like and eagle I will race above the stars
Like an eagle I will fly
Like an eagle I will fly

I'm gonna fly the highest mountain
(Fly)
Fly above the clouds
Like an eagle I will fly

B.O.O.S.T., You taught me well. You gave me strength you showed the way. I will not forget you. I would like to thank Novus for sponsoring the program. Kathy Roberts for allowing us to be here at Lake Park. Debbie Inkley for her inspiration, and starting the program. Karen Whales for coordinating B.O.O.S.T. with those out in our Community. Also, David Salazar for his time, effort. Patience and sharing his knowledge. Thanks to our dedicated tutors: Jenny Easy, and Joanne. I would like to thank my classmates who have helped make this experience a positive one for me.

As seen from my experience with B.O.O.S.T. another obstacle has created and opportunity. I hope we can leave here feeling we can fly with the eagle and keep in mind that adversity introduces a man to himself.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

NF

The presence of multiple neurofibromas is an important diagnostic sign of NF. Single neurofibromas may occasionally occur in people who do not have NF. The number of neurofibromas varies widely among affected individuals from only a few to thousands. There is no way at present to predict how many neurofibromas a person will develop. Dermal neurofibromas rarely, if ever, become cancerous. Such a change, called a malignant transformation, may occur, although very rarely, in plexiform tumors. Therefore, it is important that patients be in the care of an NF specialist. NF is an extremely variable disorder. The severity of NF ranges from extremely mild cases in which the only signs of the disorder in adulthood may be multiple café-au-lait spots and a few dermal neurofibromas, to more severe cases in which one or more serious complications may develop. The complications of NF are discussed in the next section. There is no way to predict who will have a mild case and who will develop serious complications. The majority of people with NF (probably 60%) have mild forms of the disorder. Another 20% have correctable problems and another 20% have serious and persistent problems. Many of the serious problems in NF mentioned below are evident at birth or develop prior to adolescence. These may include congenital defects of the bone, scoliosis, optic glioma and neurological impairment leading to learning disability or mental retardation. People with NF who have reached adulthood without having these problems are unlikely to develop them. Some neurofibromas, depending on their location and size, can be removed surgically if they become painful or infected, or cosmetically troublesome. A new tumor sometimes appears where one has been removed, particularly if that tumor was not removed completely. There is no evidence that removal of growths will increase the rate of appearance of new growths, or can cause incompletely removed tumors to change from benign to cancerous. Café-au-lait spots, the most common sign of NF, are the flat, pigmented spots on the skin, which are called by the French term for coffee (café) with milk (lait) because of their light tan color. In darker-skinned people, café-au-lait spots appear darker in color than surrounding skin. People with NF almost always have six or more café-au-lait spots. (Fewer café-au-lait spots may occur in people who do not have NF; in fact, about 10% of the general population has one or two café-au-lait spots). The size of the spots that identify NF varies from 1/4 inch (5 mm) in children and 3/4 inch (15 mm) in adults to several inches in diameter or larger. In general, with few exceptions, tumors are not more likely to appear where there are spots. Café-au-lait spots are usually present at birth in children who have NF or, generally, appear by two years of age. The number of spots may increase in childhood and occasionally later in life. The spots may be very light in color in infants and usually darken as the child gets older. Smaller pigmented spots, which may be difficult to distinguish from ordinary freckles, may also be present in people with NF. In those who do not have NF, freckling usually occurs in areas of skin exposed to sun. With NF, café-au-lait spots and freckling are present in other areas as well, including the armpit (axilla), where small spots are called axillary freckling, and the groin. Axillary freckling is not seen in every person with NF, but when present it is considered strong evidence of NF. Iris nevi (also called Lisch nodules) are clumps of pigment in the colored part of the eye (iris). Iris nevi, which usually appear around puberty, can be distinguished from iris freckles (commonly seen in people without NF) by a simple and painless procedure called a slit-lamp examination, which is typically performed by an ophthalmologist. Iris nevi do not cause medical problems and do not affect vision. The presence of iris nevi can occasionally be helpful in confirming the diagnosis of NF.